Monday, March 31, 2008

Childhood memories

Tonight we introduced R to this game! She did great! Hubbie and I were reminiscing about the game we owned. Remember the cherries with the hooks? Did you put them hooks up or hooks down? What was your favorite board game growing up?

Join me at 2pm

on our knees for Nate and Tricia. The lungs were not a match, but we serve a faithful God. He has His mighty hand on this family! Please pray for Tricia that she would stay infection free, that she would sleep at night so she can do her PT during the day. Please pray for Nate as he divides his time between his two beautiful ladies, for continued health for him. Please pray that Gwyneth would continue to gain weight and continue to flourish! Please pray for the family who did lose someone last night, pray comfort and peace into their lives, pray that God would reveal Himself in a mighty way through this time of lose.
God, you are so good, all the time!!

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Prayers please!!!

I am so excited! Tricia and Nate of cfhusband have gotten a call that there might be a set of lungs for her!! Please pray for God's Will, that these lungs are for her, that the surgery goes well, peace and comfort for the donor family, and peace for Tricia and Nate as they wait to find out if Tricia will have surgery in the early morning!!
Thanks!

Saturday, March 29, 2008

3 Years Ago

Pre-epiduralPost-epidural

My life changed (again) forever this night three years ago. I welcomed my first child into the world. It was an incredible start to even more incredible journey. I am very thankful for the blessings she has brought to my life. R, my life is forever changed because God sent you to me!
I love you!!

Thursday, March 27, 2008


Here is the finished wall with the pictures. We have "designed" it so that we can add more pictures if we would like.
Right now I am up to my ears in Curious George. He is the guest of honor at my 3 year old's birthday party this weekend. She is so excited about having a George birthday. We are having it at a park so the "monkeys" will not be in my house!! It should be a swingin' good time!
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weigh in

187.0
My fault entirely!! Easter candy, brownies, bakalava, pizza. Is it any wonder? and not much water!
This is a new week. I will be good over the weekend. My daughter turns 3!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Green!!



The last two days I have spent my free time on a rather impromptu project. I was rearranging some pictures and decided to patch the resulting holes. That involved pulling out all the paint stuff, which led to, "the paint does not have to be white!" So it is green instead!! I am very excited about the results. This green is also in the kitchen in small doses so it ties the front of the house with the back of the house. Check back in a couple days and I will post the wall with the pictures that started the whole process.
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Got some answers

Today we watched Beth Moore's teachings on peace. That woman is blessed with the ability to lay it out there!! I love listening to her. God speaks to me through her.
God is revealing things to me slowly (or I am slowly grasping things He has been trying to teach me for years!). I am learning so much about the Holy Spirit and His power. He has never been "real" to me. I have wondered,"How do I get what she has?" Our leader has always said, "You already have it!" "The secret is Jesus in me, the hope of glory" I still did not understand, I still did not know how to access it (him). God revealed this year that I have to empty me of myself. There is only room for one, if I am full of me, there is no room for the Holy Spirit to be. He can't fill me if I am full of myself. Let me tell you, I am full of myself!!!! No wonder I have been living a defeated Christian life, no wonder I can't seem to do anything right when it comes to doing His work. I have not been living my life full of the Holy Spirit! Beth taught us to empty ourselves each morning with all of our junk so the Holy Spirit would have room to be. Sometimes I feel like I don't have enough time!!! There is so much of me! I am working on it. I am trying to remember to take time in the morning. I need to remember I can do it throughout the day. God is a God of NOW! He can change me NOW! "God, let me speak out of love to my daughter" (when she has been whining for the past ten minutes!!!) I want to get better at remembering I have access to HIM whenever I need Him. He is there waiting to provide.
I serve an amazing God. I humbled by his perseverance in pursuing me. He does not leave me hanging. I stand in awe of HIM!!

Monday, March 24, 2008

Peace

We are studying the fruit of the Spirit in our women's Bible study. This week has been about peace. I think I mix up peace and feeling calm. Is it a lack of peace when the whining gets on my nerves and I completely snap at my daughter? Is it a lack of peace that causes me to be frustrated when Hubbie does not do something "my" way?
My image of peace is unruffled, not phased by the events happening around you. Jesus was always in control even when he was mad (in the temple courtyard). Is that peace, always being in control (or is that self-control, which we have not gotten to yet!)?
I guess I need to spend some more time in prayer about peace and how that should look in my heart and ultimately in my life.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Good Friday

I just finished watching the Passion of the Christ. I never thought I would want to watch it again and I certainly did not enjoy watching it either time. I know it is one man's impressions of what happened on Jesus' last day. I think the movie has helped make it real to me. It is easy to read it in the Bible and not fully understand what Jesus suffered through.
There were two things that struck me this time. Jesus got on that cross, he crawled across that rocky ground and laid down on the cross. He suffered this willingly. He would have done it for just me. He did it for me. I am so unworthy. I am the worst kind of sinner, one who is so prideful that I forget I do need a Savior everyday. May I never forget again. May the reality of my sin be as real to me as His suffering, as His forgiveness. May I always remember that without of His love, His grace I am nothing. May my life reflect HIM and not me.

The second thing that struck me was Mary's strength, a mother's strength. There are times when Jesus seems to draw strength from her. When he sees her in the crowd as he is being beaten, he stands tall. When he sees her again, he has the strength to stand again. This spoke to me about the power a mother can have in the life of her child. He was fully God and fully man. I believe the man in him needed his mother. I want that kind of relationship with my girls. I want them to be able to draw strength from me when they need it.

Those are my thoughts on this "darkest day in history." I look through this darkness to the HOPE of Easter morning. I can't wait to celebrate the resurrection of my Savior at the sunrise service. There is nothing like it.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

What do I wear??!!

Okay so the next statement is going to sound awful but I dislike special services at church! I never know what to wear. I think a more accurate statement is that I don't have what I would like to wear! I am so tempted to run out to Target right now (it is 4:30) to buy a "little black dress" to wear to the Maundy Thursday service tonight (at 7:00). Nothing fancy but something appropriate for a "service of shadows". I have nothing in my closet!! (which is so far from the truth, I have more clothes than I need!) That is one of my major goals as I lose this weight, I want a closet that looks nicer. I am tired of the run down SAHM look I have been wearing for years!!! Even before I was a SAHM!!
I have made one discovery I really don't like the way I look in button down shirts. They do nothing for me. I can iron them, but they never look nice.
I think I have decided on my brown capris and a cream top.
Thanks for listening to this rant. I really do know that God does not care what I wear, all He cares about is my heart and attitude. The service is not about what people are wearing, it is about reflecting on the life and sacrifice of my Lord and Savior. When I focus on that, the clothing is so unimportant.
Jesus, Help me to stay focused on you this next several days. Break my heart again to your suffering and sacrifice. Make my daily need for you as my Savior very real to me. Remind me of your love. I want this Easter to be all about you!

It is Thursday

The scale reads 186.8! I lost a pound this week! (which is amazing because the good habits have flown the coup)
I have to get back to walking!!! and drinking the water!! I hate how this goes up and down so much. I would like to stay more consistent. Holy Spirit, fill me with your self-control today!!!

Am I ...

the one who could not wait for J to crawl? Last night this was the scene as I was trying to fix dinner. At one point she was actually between my feet and crying the whole time. Next time I will put her in "park" (Hubbie made that joke last night. We laughed so hard). Park is sitting up! She has yet to figure out how to get in the scooting position from sitting.
I am very excited that my little girl is growing up and doing all sort of new things!!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Easter

As someone who grew up in a unchurched home, I sometimes struggle with holidays who background and "true" meaning lies in the church. My Easters were full of the Easter Bunny, eggs and baskets, I am not sure Jesus was ever mentioned. That is not what I want for my girls!!! Already R knows that Easter is about Jesus (and she had known since her 1st year. Thanks to Miss Patty Cake) For those of you with little kids Miss Patty Cake has a video in which she uses the Resurrections Eggs (FamilyLife) to tell the Easter story. It has stuck with R. This year R has discovered that people were mean to Jesus, and hurt him. How oh how to you explain this to a soon-to-be 3 year old!!! I told her that the mean people gave Jesus boo boos and God fixed/healed those boo boos. She understands the concept of boo boos. At first I was a little concerned about her fixation on the boo boos, but then I asked her what happened after God fixed the boo boos. She told me Jesus is alive!!
So she is off to a good start. But the dilemma is what to do about the Easter Bunny and the baskets. and the Easter Egg hunt (always a HUGE and exciting part of my childhood!) Part of the issue is that Hubbie is singing at the Sunrise service and all 3 services after that. He will not be home until about 1. So there is not really a way to have the Easter Bunny leave the baskets before church or even while we are at church. This year I think we have settled on just giving them the baskets after Hubbie gets home. Not really making a big deal about the Bunny bringing them. I am not really sure I ever want to be make a big deal about the Bunny. But then I struggle with turning my back on my childhood and the traditions my parents gave me. I LOVED the Easter Egg hunt. My Dad is the BEST egg hider ever!! He used to make a tape of where all the eggs were because he hid them so well. I want them to experience that too.
Thoughts

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Fabulous evening out

Last night I was able to get together with some friends and scrapbook!! Nothing better!! (except a date night with my hubbie) I did not get into bed until 3:30am!!! J's wake up at 6:30 came really really early!! Did you think the pastor will be understanding this morning at church if I sleep through the sermon?

On a more serious note, I have been doing some thinking and praying about my "Kingdom work" - my life and how I am living it for Jesus. Recently I have been feeling that I am too involved in my own life and not involved enough in the lives of those around me. I had lunch with a friend recently and I felt like I had nothing to discuss except my kids. Now I am well aware that raising these girls is important Kingdom work - no doubt about it. But I feel like I am being called to do more, that is a little overwhelming because I feel like I don't have time. I know that is not true. (You should see how much time is wasted on the computer everyday!!) I read recently about serving others being a sacrifice - I will have to sacrifice something to serve others. I am praying God would reveal His Plan and Will for my time.

Friday, March 14, 2008

I have been tagged for the first time!

My friend Michael tagged me to do a Crazy 8's meme, so here goes:

Name 8 Things I Am Passionate About:
1. Learning more about the Holy Spirit
2. My Amazing husband
3. My incredible children
4. LOST
5. Scrapbooking
6. Time with friends
7. Music
8. Teaching my girls about their Savior

Name 8 Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
See the list of 101 things on the right!!

8 Things I Often Say
1. Don't take that from J!!!
2. Get in your carseat!
3. Are you coming home?
4. I love you!!!
5. No raspberries while you are eating
6. Look at me! Smile!
7. Holy Spirit, FILL ME!!!
8. We need to get together

8 Books I've Recently Read or am Currently Reading
1. Navy Wife
2. Navy Brat
3. Navy Baby (all by Macomber)
4. The Resurrection Eggs with Miss PattyCake
5. Noisy Farm
6. Blue's Checkup
7. Bible
8. Going to Sleep on the Farm

8 Songs I Could Listen To Over and Over
1. Anything Casting Crowns
2. Carried to the Table - Leeland
3. From this Moment - Shana Twain
4. That's Why God Made the Moon - Chris Rice
5. Ten Thousand Charms - Jami Smith (I think)
6. Bring the Rain - Mercy Me
7. Still - Watermark
8. Silent Night - Kenny Rogers

8 Things That Attract Me To My Best Friends
1. Loyal
2. Great listener
3. Kids the same ages
4. Tell it like they see it (in love!!)
5. Always there to lend a hand
6. Fun loving
7. Shared hobbies
8. Challenge my faith

8 People I Think Should Do Crazy 8's
1. Randel @ The Hambricks
2. Julie @ Eeny, Meeny, Miny, Moe
3. Jacqueline @ Leave it to Beaver meets Sybil?
4. Jaime @ Laughable Lunacy
5. Cindy @ Daily at the Hills
6.
7.
8.
Sad but I don't have any other people (so new to blogging!)

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Weigh in

The scale did not change this week. 187.8 BUT... see the previous post for great news about my clothing size changes!! So the scale did not change but obviously my body is!!
I did have a great week of exercise though!! I have walked at least a mile everyday! Today I even increased the speed on the treadmill to jogging!! (for a few moments twice) I am excited about that. My eating habits have not been the best, but today they have been dead on!! I am getting back into the groove again!! Hopefully the scale will reflect that next week.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Big news!

So some of you will not really understand this but Today I did something I have not been able to do in years!!!! (I think pre-first child)
I bought 2 skirts! (no that is not the news!) They were size 16! (Notice anything missing!!) Not 16W!! I have not been able to wear regular sizes. I am beyond excited! So motivating! Can't wait to walk today! Been drinking my water and have made awesome food choices!!

Friday, March 7, 2008

Awesome experience

I had the most incredible experience today. God answered prayer in an unexpected way.
I was supposed to have lunch with a friend, she had to cancel. I had been praying about the lunch all morning (I confess to being a little nervous). When she canceled, I looked up and said, "that is not the answer I was looking for!" So I continued to pray that God would let me run into someone to have lunch with. No such luck! We were at Target getting J's pictures (they turned out awesome!!!!) so I decided to stay there for lunch, still praying that I would run into someone.
We were almost finished when a lady walked up with her young son the cart. She sat down and put her head down. I watched her for a few moments, it was obvious something was not right. I finally got up my nerve to go say something. Turns out she was about 3.5 months pregnant and had all the symptoms of a panic attack (dizzy, sweating, heart racing). I was able to sit with her until her friend arrived to take her to the hospital (at the recommendation of her doctor).
It was truly amazing to know that God had placed me there for that woman. It is amazing what happens when I pray and then walk yielded to the Holy Spirit!

Weekly Weigh In

Hey, You all are my "Weight Watchers" group and Thursday are my official weigh in days.
Official weigh in for the week: 187.6 (so I lost a little less than a pound this week)
I really need to get the hindy in gear! I did walk 1.5 miles once this week, but that needs to become almost a daily thing!
I have done good with my eating choices. I have avoided several treats that have been offered, the goal of losing the weight by Easter is keeping me on track.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Confessions Of A CF Husband: My Child

This is one of the sweetest moments I have have ever been able to "witness." Tricia got to hold her Gwyneth for the first time on Tuesday!! Gwyneth is 8 weeks old.
Confessions Of A CF Husband: My Child

This family is a daily inspiration to me. God has used their story to remind me how thankful I need to be.

I have decided that one of the 3 "walks for a cause" on my list will be in honor of this family. I will walk for some CF organization.

Monday, March 3, 2008

Ideas?

I have been making my list of books to read and I would like your suggestions.
What biographies have you read that have impacted your life? What other really great books have you read?

Back on track

This morning I am getting back on track with the weight loss. I am reclaiming 2 Timothy 1:7!

"For God did not give me a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-control"

I will call on that Spirit to keep my eating choices in check and to motivate me to walk on the treadmill!!
Starting weight for this re commitment is 188.4, I have a goal of being 180 by Easter. That is going to take some serious work, but I (through the Holy Spirit) am up to the challenge!!

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Do you have a question?




You Are a Question Mark



You seek knowledge and insight in every form possible. You love learning.

And while you know a lot, you don't act like a know it all. You're open to learning you're wrong.



You ask a lot of questions, collect a lot of data, and always dig deep to find out more.

You're naturally curious and inquisitive. You jump to ask a question when the opportunity arises.



Your friends see you as interesting, insightful, and thought provoking.

(But they're not always up for the intense inquisitions that you love!)



You excel in: Higher education



You get along best with: The Comma